Dealing with life's problem.

      I feel like I tend to get angry easily with little thing recently which I dislike it very much everytime it happen.  I feel bad but I didn't do anything to it. I'm so ignorant yet I still being ignorant when it comes to ignoring things.

       I don't like it when people don't agree with my comment, personal preferences. I get angry easily when people use my things without any intention to ask for my permission. I don't like it when people tell me what to do when they actually can do it by themselves. I hate it when people break into my privacy, it’s the worst thing that could ever happen no matter how close you are to me. I shouldn't feel that way when I usually don't really care about that. I don't know why I got stressed easily this few days. Probably PMS is coming. Aaahhh I hate it when I feel so negative over things like this. I’m just so mad with everything and I end up here pouring all my madness into writing.

  

     I realize that people nowadays love commenting on every little thing you do. Your different way of saying might be misinterpreted. Your thoughts might be wrong to them when you actually never mean of the wrong way. I feel like the best way to respond to that is by the way of you handling that kind of situation. I am so lack in that kind of skill. I feel like I want to respond to it, but I was just not brave enough to say it out loud. Is this call coward?  I didn't even prepare for any bullets for the next fight, so when people keep attacking me, I think I might as well die in the battlefield. 

      I am now still in exam week, the final week I suppose. Yet I haven’t study anything for the coming paper. Screw me for not studying at all.

           So its 2015 uh yet I haven't had my resolution for this year. I should made one though. I feel like I am so lack in everything but there is one thing that I feel I should change. ME. I admit that I have a bad attitude. I'm selfish, I didn't think of others when I have my mind set over other things, I didn't consider people’s feeling when it comes to decision making. I was being childish, I wanted to be calmed when things went wrong. I know I know. Now I’m afraid that my attitude, my pride will eventually lead me to something that even worst from what I am facing now. Which has brought me to start slow for this year’s resolution that is to be the better me. I wish I can. It is not easy to change your old habit, but with prayer I’m sure it can be solved. Hopefully this year is going to be a joyful ride. I am so not ready for my internship (which will start in March) mentally but I hope I can face it well. Fingers crossed to everything! I wish I can handle everything that I used to think I can’t.