The voice of a daughter

Family is important. I love my family more than anything. Eventhough i treat each of the family members very badly, i still love them. They are still the most important person in my life. It is normal when you talk  shitly to yr sisters or brothers cuz thats just the way of siblings matter. You says it but you know you dont mean it at all. It's just too fun to say like that to the siblings. No matter how big the fight is, you know that you love your siblings more than your friends. I care so much for my siblings even though i rarely express to them. As an older sister, i have a big responsible to take care of them. I know that i am not a good sister , i know that im not trying hard.. I don't know why...maybe because of my past life, where i used to be cared by others until i forgot to care about those who i should be care of. or is it just my attitude of laziness that sometimes it affect everything that i up to.. i just don't know.. if i could change something in my life, i wish i never have a maid before.. i wish it was my mum who took care of me..it was because a maid who take care of me, i became too manja, dependent, lazy.. I have decided that no matter how busy i am in the future, i will be the one who take care of my own children.. Ill teach them to be independent and never be like me..Talking about my dad..hmm..my dad is a very garang dad.. very.. he made me cry a lot.. and remembering my past makes me cry now..My dad never allows me to go out with my friends.. He always gets angry when i ask for his permission.. its okay to not letting me go but at least he should listen to my explanation .i know that i have always been a daughter that talk back to the parents.. im 20 now, my parents' gettin older.. being a good daughter is hard.. being an older sister is even harder..when your younger sister all looking at you,depending on you.. its hard when there's a burden upon your shoulder.. that you have always to work hard and give your best..